The Performer
The presenting problem
She came to coaching for executive presence. That's what the brief said. "Needs to show up more powerfully in senior leadership meetings."
In our first session I asked what that meant to her.
"I need to be seen as a leader, not just someone who delivers."
A familiar sentence. I hear it three or four times a month from high performers who've been promoted on output and then told they need something more — something nobody can quite define but everyone agrees is missing.
What nobody had asked her was: what's the cost of the performing you're already doing?
What was underneath
Her eye had started twitching six months before coaching began. Intermittent at first. Then daily. Her GP said stress. She said she was fine.
She wasn't fine.
Sleep was fragmented. Dreams about work — not nightmares, just the relentless processing of meetings and stakeholders and deliverables running through her unconscious all night. She'd wake at 4am with her jaw clenched and her mind already solving tomorrow's problems.
The body was running a parallel conversation her mind refused to have.
Underneath the executive presence question was a part I came to recognise as the performer. Not a negative label — this was a genuinely brilliant strategy. The performer had figured out, early in her career, that being excellent at delivery was the safest path to belonging. If I deliver more than anyone expects, I can't be rejected.
It worked for fifteen years. And now it was eating her alive.
Because at the senior level, delivery isn't enough. The organisation was asking her for something different — presence, influence, the ability to hold a room without an agenda or a slide deck. And the performer couldn't do that. The performer only knew one move: work harder. Deliver more. Be undeniable.
The shift
Sessions one through three were about building the map. What are the parts? What do they want? What are they protecting?
The performer wanted to be safe. That was it. Not ambitious, not driven, not excellent — safe. All the excellence was in service of never being exposed as inadequate. The performance was armour.
Session four was the turning point. I asked her to describe what "showing up powerfully" would feel like in her body — not what it would look like to others.
Long pause.
"Terrifying. Like standing in front of everyone with nothing to hold."
That's the moment. When the desired outcome and the deepest fear turn out to be the same thing. Executive presence, for her, meant being seen — not her work, not her output, not her slides. Her. And being seen was exactly what the performer was designed to prevent.
Where she landed
We didn't work on presence techniques. No power poses. No voice coaching. No stakeholder mapping for senior meetings.
We worked on the performer's belief that visibility without output equals exposure. We tested it. Small experiments. Speaking in a meeting without having prepared the perfect answer. Asking a question instead of presenting a solution. Letting a silence sit without filling it.
Each experiment was uncomfortable. Some went badly. That was the point — to discover that "badly" didn't mean the catastrophe the performer had been guarding against.
By session ten, the twitching had reduced. By session twelve, sleep was back. Not because she'd learned a relaxation technique. Because the nervous system no longer needed to sound the alarm. The threat the performer had been protecting against — being seen as inadequate — had been tested and found to be survivable.
Her leadership team noticed. Not because she was doing something new. Because she'd stopped doing something old.
What I took from it
The body doesn't lie. When a leader tells me they're fine but their jaw is clenched, their sleep is wrecked, their eye is twitching — I don't believe the words. I believe the body.
Executive presence isn't a skill you add. It's what's left when you stop performing.
Most leaders don't need more. They need to understand what the more is for.
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